Starbucks and thoughts

It's after Thanksgiving... it's been a couple good days of not thinking about work. ;) I've been trying to reflect on my choices lately. I've started running again, and although it hurts... it's uncomfortable and I hate it in the beginning... it's really the best thing I can do I think. I't only been a week and I already feel better. The holidays always seem to derail me... I'm in that very sensitive early stage where anything can set me off track. So I'm really trying to get motivated and stay on target. That being said, I've stayed up way too late and eaten way too much... but that's what the holidays are for. ;) I'm sitting by myself this afternoon at Starbucks... drinking coffee and blogging. I feel pretty good today despite nothing really changing in my life. I'm still overweight, unsure of my place at work... but I still have a wonderful girlfriend and good friends/family in my life. I sometimes feel like I'm a horrible friend. I thought I should've gone to Louisville or at least visited J. once during this holiday weekend. But to be honest, I was busy at my aunt's house and with Cathy on the trip with me, I didn't want to spend the night. So I trotted back to Lexington. And I'm so burnt out driving around, so I decided to stay in the area (Lexington) for the weekend. I guess that's not *that* selfish, but I feel bad anyway. It's good to be alone sometimes, even if I complain about it. I like these moments where I have nothing in the world to do but sit, drink coffee and read or write. It makes me sane. That's a rarity. Now I"m going to watch some videos on Hulu here at Starbucks if it'll stream. ;) Happy beginning to the holidays to me... let's hope it keeps getting better.